Cold Feet

Have you ever jumped into something and once you committed thought “oh crap, what have I gotten myself into?"At that point you know that you have two options: 1) quit 2) plow through your fear.

That’s where I was last month with Beachbody. Now some of you may be thinking- ah Tara, it’s a little early on to get cold feet (just two months in)- but no, not really. Becoming a Beachbody coach was an even bigger risk than becoming a Weight Watchers leader- why? The big fat “R” word- rejection. In the Weight Watchers meetings, while people would come and go, for the most part I had a captive and engaged audience. Not the case with Beachbody, I have to work for it.  

Perfectionists and people pleasers don’t do well in the land of potential failure and rejection. I have always wanted people to like me, to show me some level of approval. As I mature and as I remember that I’m a child of God and he’s really the only one that I need to be pleasing, the need to be liked has decreased, but it’s still there. It creeps up on me every once in a while.  

I just got off of an incredible three hour Beachbody webinar. One of the things that they talked about is that not everyone is going to support your journey and you have to be OK with that. On the flip side, there will be champions who surface who you didn’t even expect. This was a very important reminder to me. Haters gonna hate, right?!? As long as you love what you’re doing, why should their opinion even matter?

The biggest battle I’m fighting right now is getting over the NO. This one is seriously a character builder. I know that a year from now I’m going to be blown away by how much I’ve grown by being willing to put myself out there. You don’t get if you don’t ask. But the asking, it can be so scary. Maybe that all comes back to me translating a NO into people not liking me. I know that to succeed in running this business I need to get past this. So as I found myself at a crossroads last month, quit and cower or plow through my fear, I chose to plow through. How could I not when I wear the same ring each day that reads-faith over fear?

I am confident that I am exactly where God wants me to me. That he has set me up for this moment. That everything I’ve learnt and every person I’ve come into contact with is spilling over into this opportunity. It’s been a long time since I’ve been so excited about something!

I don’t have to be the shrinking violet. The person who works behind the scenes who’s afraid to speak up. Always the back-up singer, never the lead. That was my choice, nobody put me in those roles but me.  And now it’s my choice to shine. To lead. To follow my calling. To work my ass off. To blow my goals out of the water. Because I can. I control my choices. I control my actions and reactions. I choose to be well. I choose to help others to be well. I chose to plow through, one plodding step at a time. Because dammit, I have never EVER felt better and I want people to have a chance to achieve their goals and to pursue what they once thought impossible.

I’m throwing some socks on these cold feet until they’re nice and toasty. I’m not going to wait to do something until everything is lined up in perfect order. I’m just going to do and I’m going to work. Have you ever looked at a time in your life when you went through tremendous spiritual or personal transformation? And you can pinpoint exactly what you were doing and what transpired to get you to that moment? I know that is what 2016 is going to be for me. What do you want to do and what or who is stopping you?

Go back to school. Look for a new job. Change careers altogether. Pursue a new friendship. Walk away from an unhealthy relationship. Start a wellness plan. Try a new hobby. 

Fear is not a real emotion. It’s something that we create based on our current perception of our reality. Some people may look at a snake and be terrified. Some people love snakes. It’s the same snake. It’s our thoughts that change. It’s our thoughts that need to change for us to move forward. 

For the past two months, I’ve been operating in a steady state of discomfort. I have a little flutter in my belly and I know that flutter leads to growth and change.

Decide. Commit. Succeed. Be all in, don’t be a dabbler. Tomorrow is not promised.

It starts with the decision to change. It continues when you put yourself out there. When you share your commitment and ask others to hold you accountable. Surprise yourself with your success. Knock your own freaking socks off!